5.7.20
Lamenting and Rejoicing on the Hospital WhatsApp Group
1.7.20
In Everything, Give Thanks
“Why does God hate my family?” It was an earnest query by an exasperated black man.
“What do you mean? What is happening to your family?” was my reply.
The next half-hour was spent in a poignant conversation with this medical student who had seen multiple family members die in separate incidents, accidents, that felt like divine targeting of his family for punishment. He was in deep emotional distress, compounded by that kind of self-doubt that comes when you “know” you shouldn’t feel a certain way about God but nonetheless you do. He was looking to me as a missionary and mentor to help him sort through everything. I honestly did not know what to tell him in that moment. My mind raced to retrieve any information that could comfort his weary heart. I wanted to help him but could not settle on any counsel that would anchor his soul in his storm. As I often do in Burundi when faced with a situation that is completely out of my depth I sent up a flare prayer — “Jesus, help!”
The Spirit directed my mind to 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”
“OK Lord,” my heart whispered back. “It doesn’t seem like that will help but it is Your word, Your will.”
Our next hour was tremendously blessed as we talked about faith, taking God at His word, and choosing gratitude. We reviewed the Good News and spent some time in prayer together. We both left that conversation with more peace, hope, and joy than either had felt initially. I am forever grateful to that young father, for honoring me with his trial, and our Heavenly Father, for showing me again the power of trust and obedience in confusing times.
These have been trying times for everyone I know. Our community in Burundi has experienced the unexpected death of a well-loved president while while COVID-19 continues to afflict a population that does not have a lot of margin in health care or economics. Our community in the US continues to fight against the pandemic while conflicts over policing, racism, and inequality wreak havoc. My family is “stuck” in California while leaders in many nations decide when airports will reopen and what type of quarantine to require. Locusts and dust storms and earthquakes and sectarian violence touch other parts of our worldwide network of family and friends. It is enough to make my heart despair.
So what to do? Here's what I did this week.
-Sent up a flare prayer: “Jesus, help!”
-Remembered that it is always God’s will for His children to give thanks.
-Tried to chose gratitude.
(And since going to church is still restricted where we are, I got out into nature and into prayer. It is the next best thing for me. I can tell you from experience that it has been balm for my soul and rest for my heart to spend even 15-20 minutes in prayerful thanks.)
-Then I wrote a little poem:
Today I read
of fear and dread
of pestilence and pain.
I hung my head
and anxious fled
To Christ my soul’s sustain.
“What can be done?
We’re overrun —
by anger, pride, and greed.”
“Be still My son
and worry shun,
Your suffering is seed —
“Which Heaven sows,
My Spirit grows;
it burgeons forth in praise.
Its blossoms yield
and grace revealed
When humble thanks are raised.”
20.6.20
Act justly. Love mercy. Walk humbly.
Black lives matter. They always have. They always will.
I wish that I could write a poem, something deep and profound that makes people long for change and justice. But as I’m sitting here now, I’m speechless over the brokenness of my country and the pain of my black brothers and sisters that has been going on for far too long. We know that this is a mess, and it is far from enough. But we cannot stay silent.
What did we do to be born with white skin? Nothing, we had no control. George Floyd, Trayvon Martin, Amaud Arbery, and so, so many more had no control. Yet their lives were taken for it. They were given injustice while we were given privilege. And even though we did not ask for this privilege, we must use it for change.
“Darkness cannot drive out darkness. Only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate. Only love can do that.” -Martin Luther King Jr.
In the community that we were raised in, we were surrounded by Black people. They were our neighbors, our classmates, our friends, our siblings. People we care for, people we love, and people that show the same Jesus-love back to us. It is earth-shattering to me that someone would ever think that they were less than ANYONE else. We are all created in God’s image. Everyone deserves the same respect, the same love, the same grace that we would want shown to us, because that’s what Jesus tells us to do. Jesus never once showed bias. He loved each of His children equally.
Romans 2:11 – For God shows no partiality.
God acted justly, loved mercy, and walked humbly. That is exactly what He calls us to do not just right now, but always.
I’ve felt so helpless these past few weeks. I’m a white, teenage female. What can I do?
I can listen. I can repent. I can educate myself. I can have tough conversations with my family and my friends. I can love. I can humble myself. I can stand firm in the truth. I can work to stand up against racism every day. I am young, but that gives me all the more time to make a difference.
Pray. It is so powerful, more than we know. “This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us.” Pray for all the people that aren’t being shown love from others on this earth. Pray to be able to show love, and that one day, we would be seen as equal in this land, as we will be before the throne of God.
We will make mistakes. We will never truly understand.
But we stand with you, and we love you.
17.6.20
A Nation Mourns
Burundi is in mourning. On Tuesday last week, the government announced that His Excellency President Pierre Nkurunziza died on Monday, June 8th from a cardiac arrest. He was 55.
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| Agence France-Presse - Getty Images |
After 15 years in power, President Nkurunziza was in the process of stepping down, and we are very thankful for peaceful elections that took place last month. Pray for Burundi's President-Elect, Evariste Ndayishimiye. This week the Constitutional Court decided that he will be sworn in as soon as possible rather than await his planned inauguration in August. This ceremony will take place tomorrow. Like all current world leaders, he faces unprecedented challenges in our time, so please remember him in prayer.
3.6.20
The Conference That Would Have Been
| Wisdom from Debbie Harrell, Serge's Overseas Educational Advisor at the 2016 conference |
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| Our family at the Serge Conference in 2016 |
| Our boys enjoying time with a fellow TCK in 2016 |
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| Serge Conference 2020 |
27.5.20
Creative Kids Across Cultures
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| These were found on and by the sidewalks in Pasadena |
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| Cardboard and bottle cap pull cars |
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| This little guy was pretty proud of his creation :-) |
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| ...or sticks and bottle caps |
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| Bucket lids and sticks make a great game. See how long you can keep the lid rolling! |
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| So precious, both the handmade doll and the cute little girl |
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| A soccer ball that will never deflate! |
Our walks have been such a source of refreshment during these days of lockdown. Even with physical (and geographical) distancing from the ones we love, getting outside, seeing the marks of their creativity somehow connects us to each other and to the God who created from nothing. I'll end with this photo of a little cross on the trail near Kibuye. During these difficult times, know that God knows your suffering. He is at work, both in Burundi and beyond.
17.5.20
Kibuye during Covid-19
Can we talk about the "19" of Covid-19? Doesn't 2019 seem soooooo long ago!? Maybe we had problems in 2019, but as we look back we may wish we could have told our 2019-selves "buckle up, the world as you know it is about to change drastically."
Although we spent two months at Kibuye in the summer of 2019 (July-August), I'd say our true missionary career started here mid-January 2020. It's been a bit bizarre living here these past four months as our world has changed due to the pandemic. Our lives would look so different if we were in the States right now. As an outpatient pediatrician, I would probably be doing telemedicine there. As a general surgeon, maybe Michael wouldn't be doing as many elective cases. Here, it's (almost) life as usual. There have been no big changes mandated by the government except for the fact that the airport has been closed for almost two months and there was a mandatory 2-week quarantine for anyone who flew into Bujumbura. Schools are still running, churches are still gathering, and people are still working.
How do you stop work when a majority of the population earns their daily wage then goes to buy food for dinner? How do you stop schools when there is no online option? How do you tell people to stock up on food when only 9.3% of the population has access to electricity?
At Kibuye, of the remaining seven family-units, five of them contain doctors so most of us are leaving the compound and working at the hospital as per usual (plus face mask usage). We still have family worship on Saturday afternoons, each family on a blanket on the floor of the outdoor pavilion. The remaining children are still attending school and because there are so few left, social distancing even in a classroom is possible.
We haven't seen a wave of patients severely ill with respiratory disease, at least on the adult side. In Peds, it's "bronchiolitis season" and therefore we are seeing a lot of respiratory illness, and even subsequent death which unfortunately is not uncommon for this season. Is it Covid-19? I don't know, and we probably never will because of the limitations in testing for the virus and because of the lack of specificity of symptoms for the disease. We have heard of some people in Kibuye with anosmia, the loss of sense of smell, which is a more particular symptom. As not many other things cause that symptom, it could cause one to assume that it is circulating here. Thus far, however, we are thankful to have avoided any crisis.
This week is also a very big week in Burundi; May 20th is Election Day. There have been multiple political rallies (even one just outside the hospital), which have been peaceful. We hear campaign cars driving by at least 2-3 times day giving their information in Kirundi and playing music. Please pray for peace leading up to and after Election Day.
11.5.20
Advocacy
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| COVID testing site for persons experiencing homelessness |
On the day I was scheduled to fly back to Burundi after home assignment in the US (March 26), I wrote the blog post here about culture and coronavirus. Six weeks later I'm still here and there is still no word on when the Burundi airport might open up again. There have been ups and downs in the past six weeks, but mostly I have been thankful for God's provision. Several of us recently did a distance women's retreat for missionaries and the theme was from Habakkuk 3: Yet I will celebrate. Even though I'm not where I thought I would be at this time, even though the world has been turned upside down, even though I can't even spend extra time with family and friends while I wait due to social distancing, even though the pediatrics team in Burundi is significantly short-staffed..."yet I will celebrate in the Lord. I will rejoice in the God of our salvation. The Lord my Lord is my strength. He makes my feet like those of a deer and enables me to walk on mountain heights." (Habakkuk 3:17-19)
One thing I have been celebrating is how God raises people up around the globe to advocate for those in need (which is all of us at times!) As I looked for ways to help with the COVID efforts as a physician, friends advocated for a position for me in the fray even though I have been out of US medicine for years. And ultimately God provided an ideal part time temporary position for me at the local health department working with vulnerable populations. After 10+ years in under-resourced places in Africa, I now have the opportunity to learn from advocates for the disadvantaged in my passport country. As I've spent many hours in (mostly virtual) meetings, I've been amazed by the enthusiasm and passion of these advocates as they seek to make a difference in their community. We've talked about how to make messages about COVID more accessible to people with hearing impairment and to non-English speakers. We've heard from pastors of congregations at significant risk due to systemic inequality, racism, and chronic health conditions. We've talked about how to test folks who don't have access to transportation and how to protect those in homeless shelters. We've discussed how to ensure access to care for people with mental health needs and disabilities. We've looked at how to address people experiencing new homelessness when the usual resources are unavailable due to shelter-in-place orders. During each discussion, there are people on the call who intimately understands the needs of the at-risk population - people willing to go out to the "highways and byways"and talk to the vulnerable about their needs, to distribute masks, to provide food, to staff crisis hotlines, to work tirelessly writing protocols and educational materials, and to speak up for those at risk of being marginalized and forgotten.
I have learned much from these advocates on how to persevere in both caring for people where they are and also appealing to authorities for change - even if things don't change immediately. The other day I wondered sadly, "What about those around the world who don't have an advocate - who live their lives unseen and who have significant need that no one is addressing?" I think of some of the Burundian mamas in our feeding program who Susan (an amazing advocate!) has discovered have no place to live and no way to earn income to feed or clothe their families. I think of orphans and widows and those with disabilities who don't live in countries with established advocacy organizations. I think of folks in every corner of the globe who have experienced serious trauma or adverse childhood experiences but do not have access to trauma counseling or other resources to help them begin to heal and learn to trust.
Thankfully, we do actually all have an advocate! "If anyone does sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ the righteous." (1 John 2:1b) Jesus Himself is our advocate - for all eternity! And we identify with Him as we advocate for others, too - even when it's hard and there is no visible fruit. We await the ultimate new heavens and new earth with the redemption of all things, but in the meantime we see glimpses of new creation even in the unique passions God gives us for certain people who need advocates around us.
6.5.20
Rural Missionary Life As a DIY Experience
Need some PPE (Personal Protective Equipment) in the midst of a pandemic? Stephanie and Lindsay have been working hard to organize mask-making for our hospital employees and patients. Even the kids have participated in the efforts.
While it can feel at times that there are too many problems to fix, that we're in way over our heads, or that there just isn't enough time in the day or energy in the body to figure out one more thing, the reality is that we are not alone and that it's not all up to us. We have national partners who are invested in this with us. We have access to a network of professionals, churches, organizations, and individuals from all over the world who are willing to give or offer support in any way they can.
For example, just a few days ago, John was faced with a really complicated glaucoma case. He e-mailed several glaucoma specialists in the USA asking for advice and quickly received input from the top specialists in the field to help guide surgical care for his patient.
Most importantly, we have a God who is walking with us every step of the way. We don't need to rely on our own intelligence, capabilities, energy, or ingenuity. He will give us what we need when we need it. And we're thankful for the reminders that He gives of His presence, like this beautiful double rainbow on Sunday.
2.5.20
Post-Graduate Interns: A Major Highlight
One of the perennially funny things about blogging is how you can look back and notice how you've missed something major. Such is the case for our post-graduate internship program.
A reform in medical school curriculum back in 2011 set the roadmap for graduates from Burundi to follow medical school with a one-year post-graduating "rotating" internship (meaning that they rotate through several different specialties during this year). This is what is done in other countries in our region, and what several of us help to supervise when we lived in Kenya.
The program hasn't yet begun on a national level, but many doctors will go somewhere in the country for something similar but less formal, called in French a "stage professionnel". Many of our graduates have expressed interest in more training after graduation, and we have been eager for several years to take young doctors through a more formal and intensive "stage professionnel", following the model of the internships to come.
After several years in planning, we started this program on May 1, 2019. We took eight doctors, and later expanded to twelve. They spend 3 months each on Internal Medicine, Surgery, Pediatrics, and OB-GYN. They take lots of call, and they see patients in clinic. They have weekly lectures and reading assignments, and they have been a big part of a weekly doctors' bible study. Because of their dedication, they have, in many ways, been the heartbeat of the hospital these last several months, and we are so thankful both for them, and for who they are becoming.
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| Several of the "stage professionnels" with "Papa Banks", their fearless leader |
Congratulations to Dr. Cesarine Nishimwe, Dr. Emmy Prince Ndengeyingoma, Dr. Moïse Niyuhire, Dr. Christian Niyoyitungira, and Dr. Olivier Hakizimana. Thank you for trusting in a new program and for blazing a trail that many can now follow. May God bless you and guide you in the days to come.
Some pictures from last night's fête:
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| Five finishing doctors with their certificates |
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| Eric and Dr. Gilbert (Kibuye's medical director) congratulating Dr. Prince |
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| All but one of the current post-graduate interns |
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| Video messages from those who couldn't be present |
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| Cutting Madame Cynthia's awesome cake |
































